Take a turn for the better!

Its amazing how quickly life takes a turn for the better. Since I last posted pretty much nothing has changed other than my attitude. My oh my what a difference attitude can make.
I have been praying and trusting in God alot more, probably still not enough, but alot more. We now have a sort of weekly routine in place. Game night once a week, movie night once a week, Family devotions once a week, ect. It has made a world of difference for us. We have actually started doing some of the things we always said we wanted too. Also I have a reason, a motivation to get my house clean. Now that it has been so nice for a few weeks I am feeling happier, more in control, ready to tackle some of the clutter hidden in corners or cupboards.

Also on the upside God willing we should have CC debt paid off by Summer, and then we will be selling this house and searching for another. Prayers for that would be greatly appreciated as I am trying not to overstress about it.

This week I will be getting my Veggie bed ready and planting starts, it should be fun. :)

Life really is full of ups and downs, I am glad with prayer I am able to get through each faze of it stronger and hopefully closer to God.

Take a breath!

Time just seems to slip away from me anymore. I feel that if I don't sit back, pray, reflect, and make some changes I may just start missing some important bites of life.
My beautiful daughter is already 7 and my oldest son is 5 this Saturday. How and when did this happen? I fill my days, each and everyone, never having that minute of free time to just sit and spend one on one with my child. Yet I find the time for many mundane and useless things. For instance this blog. Ever cleaning, running, disciplining, forgetting just to Love.
Marriage? What about marriage, are we just walking through this life side by side? Or could this be something more? How can I forget to care about what he cares about. Forgetting to even ask the right questions. Emotions running high.

Trudging when I know I could run or at least walk.

Changes, it's now or never. Praying, waiting, acting

Hope for grace and peace

Just a little something

This is something my cousin emailed me! Its a pic that reminds her of me and my girl cousins. We all grew up very close and are more like sisters than cousins. :)

This is the text she sent along with it!

Hey everyone!

I just bought this folder for Emily with some princesses drawn on it. When I got it home and started looking at it closer It reminded me a lot about all of us.

This it what I noticed:

Jenny- Her favorite colors, when she was real little, were purple and pink. Now it is deep red.
She likes anime and this princess looks like the Japanese cartoon art. Her eyes and hair are brown.
The dress looks very much like her to me with that little jacket.

Esther- One of my favorite colors is pink. She is wearing pearl earrings, My middle name is Pearl.
I wore gloves just like those for my wedding. She has blonde hair and brown eyes.
This dress is not my favorite, but I like western style the most of all of us I think.

Liorah- Gold is definitely her color. I think she likes green too. Her hair was red for many years of her life (maybe not all natural, but nice!)
Those large blue eyes definitely remind me of her. Her hair always looked really pretty braided. That dress just fits her style.

Beth- This Princess looks the most royal, She was always very proper. She likes pink. She is the shortest (sorry Beth).
I don't ever remember you having bangs. Maybe in the late 80's? She is also wearing pearls, Her middle name is Pearl.
She has blonde hair and blue eyes. This dress looks like a queens dress, and she was always the Mommy to us all.

Abbie- One of her favorite colors, or maybe Bob's, Is blue. The golden hair is definitely her.
The princesses eyes are blue, but hers are hazel. close though. This dress is soft with clean lines and less fussy which works well for her.
I remember you didn't like fussy dresses as a kid.

Lots of love Esther

My girl turned 7 this month and I can see her transforming into a young lady in front of my eyes. It is somewhat sad yet beautiful at the same time. I just hope I can teach her to be the woman God wants her to be. These are pictures of her Little Houseon the Prairie party. :)

So Haven Emmanuel joined the family one month ago tomorrow.

I can't believe how quickly time has been flying by.

He has surgery scheduled for the 7th because he is tongue tied. Hopefully we can get the health plan to cover it but if they dont we will have to do it anyway. So prayers for that are appreciated.

3 days until Christmas

Now officially 37 weeks. Hoping the little man waits until after Christmas so I dont end up in the hospital for the holiday. That would be a bit sad for me and my family.

Feeling pretty good, still having contractions, but not too many and not too entense.

Today me and my little ones are going to make some Christmas treats and just try and relax. I can hardly believe it is only 3 days until Christmas. Time has just been flying past. The last couple of months have been full of ups and downs and have really made me appreciate my husband and little ones more and more.

I am really hoping for a peaceful 2008. Praying for wisdom for us as a family has been my favorite thing to do as of late. So many things might be changing in the coming year. New baby, new vehicle (We hope), new house (We pray), possible job change for Justin. Who can tell but God what a new year will bring.

Right now I am thanking God for friends and praying that all of mine can trust in him and have a wonderfully blessed Christmas.

Blessings, Beth

Day By Day

Saturday I was officially 36 weeks.

I was having some medium strength contractions and getting stressed. Those of you who know what my last delivery was like may understand. I went in and got checked and I am only 2 cm and 50% effaced so it should still be awhile before Haven decides to join us.

The nurse at the hospital was pretty funny though, she gave me a huge list of reasons to come in for. Pretty much anything. :) Caleb was so good while they checked me at the hospital that it gave me hope he will be good for the actual delivery. The other two kiddoes on the other hand were kind of crazy.

Christmas is only 9 days away. I can hardly believe it. I am hoping that Haven will either be born soon or wait until after Christmas. I would so rather he didnt have to share his Birthday with such a big holiday. It will already be close no matter what.

Anyway I just wanted to update and will post again soonish I hope.

Prepared?

Here I am with 19 days until Christmas and 37 days until baby Haven is due to arrive.
I am definately nesting at the moment. I have the most annoying urge to organize and clean the most unusual things. :)
I am feeling tired and somewhat stressed even though I know I shouldn't be. I worry that with how quickly Caleb came this one will be even faster. Scary thought for me. Every contraction makes me think I am about to deliver, I really need to relax. Hehehe

So far the Christmas season has been nice and my kids are asking so many questions about Jesus and the season. It is so much fun to see how joyful they are about everything. I hope to get all my presents (Its not that many) wrapped tonight after the kids are in bed. I was going to do it last night but I had m Hubby get the baby clothes out of the attic for me to sort through instead.

Somehow I got all the boys clothes sorted and bagged by size. I also was able to squeeze all three boys clothes into the one dresser. Good thing they aren't girls, girls have way more clothes.
I did discover though that I have hardly any 0-3 month clothes left. Some jammies, and onesies and 2 outfits. I guess I might actually have to go pick up a few things at kid cents or something.

So here I am today, trying to stay relaxed, organize everything I can, have a nice holiday season, and mostly remember that God is in charge of everything and I really need to trust in that.

Oh one last thing Edge wireless, that place my Dear Hubby works has now been officially sold to A.T. & T. and we have no idea what they will be doing with current employees or when the actual transfer will take place. So please keep us in your prayers. Obviously with almost 4 children it can be a bit stressful not knowing what is happening with our job situation.